Over the last 9 months I have been working toward a certificate in instructional design, one course at a time. And because the instructors of our courses are trying to model some of the learning theory that we study in class we end up reflecting on our own learning quite a bit. It has been difficult to pick out just a few things I’ve learned in the last course. Not that I didn’t learn anything, I did. But it doesn’t stand out to me as separate from my work life. I realize this sounds bad, like I’m not learning or engaged or that I simply can’t remember anything. I can remember things, but in the case of these courses, it’s learning that I apply to my everyday work or most importantly it’s learning that what I have been doing is actually pretty good.
I think it’s important to know that what often feels like an instinct to me can be correct. For one, it gives me confidence, especially when I’m trying to promote a new program or way of doing things to other people. It also lets me being own personal cheering section, while my colleagues are great people who are happy to support me any way they can, sometimes I end up alone in my office not sure if what I have dreamed up could work. And that sadly is where the doubts come in.
I was reminded of this as I was catching up on Zoe Fisher’s blog. She has been doing an interesting deep dive into information literacy. I’ve been following along and she makes some great observations about IL. I was especially struck by some of the comments she had about critical information literacy; first that she realized that she had been doing critical information literacy all along and that some of us may be intimidated by the big ideas in the conversation.
I feel the same way about instructional design. I have been doing instructional design all along and now I am learning to put these thoughts and processes into structured formats. I am also really good at getting in my own way, I feel overwhelmed by jargon and theory and my impostor syndrome comes out in full force. What can I do? I can do my best and be ok with it. Or as my yogis say I can “relax with what is.” I can trust that by working and learning I will get to where I want to go.